Sunday, August 9, 2009

The Best Laid Plans...

I've been having issues focusing lately.

Granted, my hubby and I have been on a roller coaster dealing with health issues he has, as well as our jobs completely pushing us closer to the edge.

But for the most part, I seem to have difficulty maintaining focus and sticking to a plan in general. I mean, I like the idea of a plan. I will even go over the details in my head - sometimes even write them out - but when it comes down to putting it into action, my resolve wavers.

I will have everything laid out in my mind, exactly how it should play out, but when faced with the application - I crumble. What's up with that? My Mom is a planner. She writes almost everything down, then follows through with her plan like a well oiled machine. I just can't seem to make that transition.

And I've always been like that. I have half-finished stories, books, and projects everywhere. I know what needs to be done. I even know how it needs to be done. I just can't always make myself do it.

I don't think it's that I'm lazy. I think alot of it is that there's so many things crammed into this head of mine, that I have trouble picking out what to focus on and complete. I'm a dreamer, unfortunately. And dreamers seem to dwell on the abstract - of what it might be like to have something, instead of what is actually needed to obtain it.

I guess I need to get my head out of the clouds.

Or something like that.

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